Tuesday, March 7, 2017


A Brief Reflection on the Beginning of the Surah The Prophets and the Idolatry of Worshiping the Nearest in Four Philosophical Moments: Descartes, Wittgenstein, Heidegger, and Foucault



Ever closer to people draws their reckoning, while they turn away, heedless.  Whenever any fresh revelation comes to them from their Lord, they listen to it playfully with frivolous hearts. The evildoers conferred in secret: ‘Is this man anything but a mortal like yourselves? Are you going to fall under his spell with your eyes wide open?’ He said, ‘My Lord knows everything that is said in the heavens and the earth: He is the All Hearing, the All Knowing.’  Some say, ‘Muddled dreams’; others, ‘He made it up’; yet others, ‘He is just a poet, let him show us a sign as previous messengers did.’  But of the communities We destroyed before them not a single one believed. Will these now believe?  And even before your time [Prophet], all the messengers We sent were only men We inspired–– if you [disbelievers] do not know, ask people who know the Scripture–– We did not give them bodies that ate no food, nor were they immortal. We fulfilled Our promise to them in the end: We saved them and those We wished to save, and We destroyed those who exceeded all bounds.” (21:1-9)

The surah The Prophets is about characteristics of prophets.  They are usual people like any other; they have needs and are mortal. “Muddled dreams”, “he made it up” or “he is a poet”: These are usual excuses to disregard their messages.  If one is not inclined and guided to believe, no confirmation can convince him or her.  Life is no argument and any argument that is not at the disposal of truth, can’t be at the disposal of life too.  And any argument that rejects the truth or sees it merely as a practical toolkit for the worldly results, or as that which reveals itself only in observational and phenomenal verifiable or falsifiable propositions is blind to the ultimate falsifiability, where our conscience will attest to the non-linear Truth, in front of the Lord.  Then we can’t answer this question: “why did you not heed My messages sent through a host of prophets?  I gave you the reason and conscience to measure it for yourself, but you brought faith in your materialism and immediate results, like all idolatries you just trusted your shortsighted eyes and entertained yourself with what came about as the nearest.  Did God’s anti-idolatry message not reach you and did you put enough time and heart to fathom the meaning of the message?  Why did you turn a blind eye and follow your own ‘reason standing on its own alone’—because after all ‘who are you?’—a mortal abject being wired into the biosphere with the life span of a worm, compared to the universe, angels, and God?  If there is a light of reasoning and morality in you, it is given to you by God.”  God probably would say, “I gave you the measure of conscience and power of knowledge and you ignored how limited you are and declared yourself as God, against the Truth of conscience!”

And now We have sent down to you [people] a Scripture to remind you. Will you not use your reason?  How many communities of evildoers We have destroyed! How many others We have raised up in their places! When they felt Our might coming upon them, see how they tried to escape it! ‘Do not try to escape. Go back to your homes and the pleasure you reveled in: you may be questioned.’  They said, ‘Woe to us! We were wrong!’ and that cry of theirs did not cease until We made them burnt-off stubble.” (21:10-15)   

When I look back at the history of philosophy, I am surprised that how slowly we opened up the horizon of our understanding.  The Quran, the last revelation of God, came down to us as the miracle of “words”, not images or what satisfies our immediate sense of wonder, bending natural laws in miracles.  I have been pondering the anti-idolatry message of Abrahamic religions.  Their central message: "Refrain from worshiping any image or anything in the phenomenal world: people, the moon, the sky, the sun, the universe" can be translated into one simple proposition:  Don’t worship what is the nearest!   Or what is seemingly the farthest and invisible is the nearest.  The biosphere is nearer than this tree and the bird singing or the latter happens because of the former.  The solar system is nearer than biosphere or the latter happens because of the former.  The universe is nearer than the solar system or the latter happens because of the former.  God is the nearest—nearer than the universe or anything else, or the latter happens because of the former.  The “causal” connection should not be understood in the way that as if the universe and the earth are caused in time and then function on their own.  This is another nearsightedness of human interpretation.  Because the nearest Eternal is also the nearest in time[1]—God is that which sustains every single moment of our lives, every single tree and singing bird and the universe in loving-bestowing by the Merciful [1].

And the Satan enters through our shortsightedness and the door of excess.  As soon as I disregard and reject this world as the nearest and devote myself only in contemplating seemingly the farthest: Being and God, then I can’t see that Being and God are present in the world and universe too, though they are not identical with it (this is what Heidegger calls Ontological Difference)[2].  The falling state occurs in losing our balance while walking on the tightrope of “identity” and “difference”.  The medievalists who ignored the study of nature and sciences for worshiping what is seemingly the farthest—Being and God—lost their balance.  The modernists and postmodernists who ignore the seemingly the farthest, Being and God, and merely study nature or historical discourses in human sciences—they fall.  And Satan enters through the door of excess.


Swedenborg's explication of the falling of 'material person' is to the point:

"Such was the destiny of the third posterity of the Antiquissima Ecclesia: doubt. It was the destiny of people who maintained that there should be no faith in revealed things, that the existence of suprasensory spiritual worlds should not be accepted, except on condition that they were seen and perceived by common empirical knowledge.  The serpent, all kinds of serpents, in ancient times always designated those who had more trust in things presented to their senses than in revealed and suprasensory things. Their guile has been increased even more in our time, when they command an entire arsenal of knowledge called “scientific,” which was unknown to the ancients. Sometimes it is the person who believes only his senses; sometimes it is the scientist, sometimes the philosopher. Here Swedenborg returns to his favorite theme, for his entire work—that of thinker and that of visionary—is testimony to the existence of a spiritual world more substantial, richer in images and forms, than the sensory world, whereas the deniers agree in rejecting its existence.” (Swedenborg & Esoteric Islam, by Henry Corbin, p.24) 

I was wondering the meaning of my existence, studying philosophy, and taking pleasure in the nearest: the passing world, as the ultimate.  My philosophy was the nearest: materialism, economy, mode and relations of production, behaviorism—truth reveals itself merely through external manifestations.  In my shift to Cartesian moment, truth still was the nearest: it reveals itself through my “thinking subject”: “I think, therefore I am.”  In my Foucauldian shift, it became the question of “how” things are organized in the dominant discourses of time and relations of power, in the history of institutions: the nearest.   



Still we struggle to make sense of the history of Western philosophy and can’t overcome our shortsightedness.  I consider four historical moments: Descartes, Wittgenstein, Heidegger, and Foucault.  Is it not strange that Descartes sat by the fire entertaining logically conceivable ideas (logical possibility) and logically inconceivable ideas (logical impossibility) and came to the conclusion that the most certain is my personal solipsistic subjective thinking, and by “thinking subject” he meant “willing, desiring, imagining …” anything that happens to one’s subjective world.   So, we have the commercialized cliché now that “I think, therefore I am”.  Not completely false, but wrong and limited by excess.  It never came to his mind, given our historical shortsightedness it couldn’t, that maybe the way to look at it is all the way around: the subjective experience—I think, desire, etc.—is as well universal.  The universality of language, Being, human soul is the condition of possibility of my individual thinking, otherwise I couldn’t learn a language and share my ideas and needs with my fellow human beings.  However, and this is an important ‘however’ against excess, my individual thinking soul is not completely reducible to the conditions of my existence.  Our linear, atomistic, and reductionist thinking can’t joggle these two together: neither complete identity, nor complete difference.  Instead of looking at what is the most certain as collective-individual, particular-universal, he was mesmerized by the logical possibility that the whole world could be a delusion and “I” am the only real thing, entrapped into the “inside”.  The fact is that my understanding of logic is possible because of the common use of language as being-in-the-world along-with-coextensively-simultaneously-equiprimordially (gleichursprunglich) having innate capacities.  I understand my own desires and thoughts because of… concentric layers of false and true consciences and consciousnesses, because of my universal connection to other human beings, because of diversity of life on this planet, because of being wired into biosphere, because of being a speck of dust in the horizon of events in the universe, and first and foremost because of God’s endowment of my and your individual-particular innate capacities of thinking, conscience, and soul.  They come together and it is asymmetrical.  It means if anything is supposed to come first is the ocean not the drop.

In the second moment, we have Wittgenstein. It took a long time for him to rid himself of the Tractatus' atomistic thinking to arrive at Philosophical Investigation's holistic understanding of language. Not strange that he has a difficult time to digest the fact that to understand a language, as human beings universally do, requires that human beings share also a universal subjective-objective world to be able to understand each other. So, one does not have to imagine someone else’s pain merely on the model of one’s own—as Wittgenstein assumes. He is unable to stop thinking in the linear movement from A to B to C, from the inside of one individual to another individual and as he can’t pin this movement down, he rejects the inner world altogether and comes to the conclusion that everything has to be seen from outside—behavior— to be perceived clearly, another excess. As well, he thinks as there is no private language, so there can’t also be a private and internal-subjective world for human beings--another excess. The fact is that we understand each other’s subjective feelings because we have a holistic access to both universal shared feelings--which make us human--and our behavior as being-in-the-world. And we have also individual, unique and original, souls.  They come together, it is not one or the other, my feelings are not completely alien and different from your feelings, nor is it completely reducible to our collective behavior or vice versa.

The third moment is Heidegger who showed us how all philosophers since Descartes (English empiricism, Spinoza, Leibniz, Kant, and Hegel) were representing the historical movement of Being in subjective and representational relation between a subject and an object, i.e., the outside (object) represents itself to an inside (subject).  This is another example of taking what is the nearest as the most real, moving from A to B to C, not being able to see that we are already on the line, and the line is the condition of possibility of this movement.  It is like an ant who can’t see that it is finding food from hive eusocial behavior on chemical trails and its antenna to detect minute odors is not simply a movement from an “inside” to an “outside” and from A to B to C but it functions as part of a bigger whole and this bigger whole is its “referential totality”—the nearest.  Heidegger’s phenomenology was startling, and it is difficult for so many to digest.  They can’t see that human understanding and logical possibility are not a movement from “inside” of a subject to the “outside” as an object.  They can’t digest that I can’t understand "hammer" if I don’t understand referential totality in which hammer can be used.  This way of understanding myself and the world doesn’t level off my existence to behaviorism and to merely what is outside (for example, there is “no self” arguments), nor does it confine my understanding to my inner subjective understanding.  Heidegger completely changes the paradigm of thinking and introduces a holistic understanding in which Being speaks us in our language and we have a choice to listen to the call of conscience or not.  However, in excess he assumes Being reveals itself only to the phenomenology of what appears and conceals itself, ignoring revelations.  He doesn’t dare to commit himself to revelations and the fact that Being and Event (Ereignis) come from God.

The fourth moment is postmodernism and I take Foucault as one representative of postmodernism.  Postmodernism declares the death of subject or subjective, similar to Wittgenstein, but along with the declaration of the death of subject, Foucault announces the death of objective truth too.  He reduces knowledge to power, "knowledge is for cutting not understanding".  Knowledge is for doing things and pragmatists, such as Rorty, adore him for this matter.  Foucault sees everything as arbitrary though intelligible and falls astray into reducing human soul to the historical force field of relations of power: "power creates the individual"--he believed.  This is another kind of idolatry in which we take what is the nearest as the most certain.  In excess, he can’t remember that Being makes knowledge possible.  There is a universe out there.  Revelations show the source of our existence, and nominalism and nihilism are fallacious.  He forgot we are connected to our source, we breathe air, light literally touches our eyes, and universally we all long for the source of our being.  He was Being-God blind.  With the death of subject and dissolving human self into historical institutions, discourses, and relations of power, he also buried "Truth and Meaning" and fell into the hell of the nearest pleasure: 


We did not create the heavens and the earth and everything between them playfully. If We had wished for a pastime, We could have found it within Us– if We had wished for any such thing.  No! We hurl the truth against falsehood, and truth obliterates it– see how falsehood vanishes away! Woe to you [people] for the way you describe God!  Everyone in the heavens and earth belongs to Him, and those that are with Him are never too proud to worship Him, nor do they grow weary; they glorify Him tirelessly night and day.” (21:16-20)
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[1] Bruce B Adam's comment on this part of reflection: "Don’t worship what is the nearest! Or what is seemingly the farthest and invisible is the nearest. The biosphere is nearer than this tree and the bird singing or the latter happens because of the former. The solar system is nearer than biosphere or the latter happens because of the former. The universe is nearer than the solar system or the latter happens because of the former. God is the nearest—nearer than the universe or anything else, or the latter happens because of the former. The “causal” connection should not be understood in the way that as if the universe and the earth are caused in time and then function on their own. This is another nearsightedness of human interpretation. Because the nearest Eternal is also the nearest in time—God is that which sustains every single moment of our lives, every single tree and singing bird and the universe in loving-bestowing by the Merciful. "

I think you'll agree that JS Haldane puts this very clearly in the followin closing words for "The Philosophy of a Biologist"

"It will now be evident enough that instead of beginning the discussion of philosophy with physical science we might equally well have begun with some other branch of science, or, as Socrates in effect did in his discussion of 'virtue' and knowledge, with religion, by describing the fundamental experience which religion embodies. We could then, as Socrates did not himself do, havepassed in succession to psychology, biology, physical science, and mathematics. These sciences would then represent successive stages in which our experience is stripped more and more of its actual content by a process of artificial abstraction.

The question would then remain as to why we apply this process of abstraction, and the answer given was that in matters of detail our perceptions are so imperfect that we are unable to reach more than abstract or imperfect conceptions. Yet these abstract conceptions are of the utmost service, so that we cannot dispense with them. They are nevertheless only our own devices, and if, as Descartes and many others have done, we regard them as complete representations of experience, confusion necessarily results, as shown in detail in the preceding chapters.

All of these sciences neglect elements in our experience, mathematical interpret- ation neglecting most, and psychological interpretation least. On the other hand mathematical or physical interpretations are far more frequently applicable in matters of detail than psychological interpretation, and in this respect are of very great importance. We can count and measure all sorts of aspects of our experience, but even when we can add a physical interpretation this by itself tells us nothing about biological significance or about values, though it may nevertheless be sufficient for many practical purposes where we do not require to see more deeply. From the standpoint of philosophy, however, the important matter is to realize that in whatever way we may approach philosophy the sciences represent reality only partially, so that their results must not be taken for more than this partial representation.

We have now reached the end of this outline of present-day philosophy as it appears to the writer. The general conclusions reached may be summed up in the statement that the real universe is a universe of personality and the manifestation of God, its scientific aspects being only partial interpretations of it, the imperfect nature of which is revealed by philosophical criticism."



[2] A comment by Giovanni Maximus on the following part of the reflection:"God is the nearest—nearer than the universe or anything else, or the latter happens because of the former. The “causal” connection should not be understood in the way that as if the universe and the earth are caused in time and then function on their own. This is another nearsightedness of human interpretation. Because the nearest Eternal is also the nearest in time."

I was recently rereading an excerpt from Max Scheler and what you say brings this to mind:

"In relation to all possible multiplicity of numbers and quantities, God is the being which of its nature has no quantitative restriction and is therefore incalculable. In other words, he is the being to whose very essence it belongs to be the unique instance of its species. Thus, God is God as the absolutely unique. And so to God's absolute unity and formal simplicity we must add his absolute uniqueness. As such it precludes any numerical definition—and of course even the numerical definition represented by the figure 'one'. 'The' unique being just is not 'one'—it is by nature that which is innumerable.

In relation to time the infinite mind bears the name of the eternal. This is not simply the sempiternal, that which has absolute duration or fills all time, for that is an attribute which may at least meaningfully be predicated of matter and energy. No, what it expresses is that God, as 'supratemporal', may (just as he please) be also intratemporal, is able to fill every instant and period of time in a manner and order chosen by himself and not prescribed to him by the order of time (that is, the natural laws appropriate to time). Precisely by virtue of his eternity God is also able to enter any irrevocable moment of history in his oneness and undivided state, without thereby detracting one jot from his eternity.

In relation to space the infinite mind has the property of ubiquity. This means that because of his absolute superiority over space God can in one and the same act be everywhere and act everywhere, without having in his being to partake of the divisibility and natural laws of space, and without submitting his located presence to geometric and kinetic laws. Thus ubiquity is as distinct from omnipresence (in the sense of being at every point in space) as God's eternity is from sempiternity. It signifies that God, as supraspatial, can be and act whole and undivided (being simple) at whatever point in space he chooses.

In relation to all that partakes of the form of being, and of the corresponding ideal form, known as magnitude, God's infinity of being bears the name of immeasurability. This does not mean that God has magnitude, which, however, is infinite and therefore not measurable, but rather that as an absolutely simple being God has no part at all in the category of divisible magnitude and is immeasurable only because whatever is measurable postulates magnitude. God can therefore be and act whole and undivided in whatever thing he chooses that possesses magnitude, whatever be that magnitude.

And so God, who as the *ens a se* is already infinite, unitary and simple, is in his attributive definition as mind also unique, eternal, ubiquitous and immeasurable.

Finally, God has omnipresence: the *immanentia Dei in mundo* belongs to the essence of God. God is in every existent, so far as it is. Omnipresence is not exhausted by the fact that God effects (creates and sustains) every thing, has power over all and knows all. On the contrary, it underlies his omnipotence and omniscience as a precondition. Both knowledge of a thing and power over a thing are but specified modes of participation in one being by another. God is in everything according to his very essence and existence, and only for that reason is he able to know everything and have power over everything. But it is not correct to say also that everything is in him, as is said in panentheism and acosmic pantheism; there is no *immanentia mundi in Deo*. For the world is according to reality distinct from God, and only because God is infinite mind can God notwithstanding be in everything."
—from_On the Eternal in Man_, Problems of Religion, pp. 192-193

[3] A comment by Giovanni Maximus on this part of reflection: "As soon as I disregard and reject this world as the nearest and devote myself only in contemplating seemingly the farthest: Being and God, then I can’t see that Being and God are present in the world and universe too, though they are not identical with it (this is what Heidegger calls Ontological Difference)."
Or to put it simply, you're proposing a balance between *immanence* and *transcendence*. If so, I agree, perhaps this is one of the reasons I have been drawn to the notion of "panentheism" (in contrast to "pantheism"), since it seems to maintain this balance between immanence and transcendence. Thus, the modern and postmodern worlds are lacking in, or are bereft of a sense of the "transcendent." And what you characterize as the view of the "medievalists" is one which puts all the accent or emphasis on God's transcendence (although there are some exceptions: John Scotus Eriugena, St. Bonaventure, etc, who seemed to have had a sense of God's immanence, especially Eriugena who was big on the distinction between "natura naturans" and "natura naturata"). The "monotheistic" traditions, as you suggest, put the emphasis on "transcendence"; pantheism on God's immanence. But the secular-scientific worldview deny divinity altogether and physical-material "Nature" is all there is. And I agree that these excesses have created difficulties. It seems to me that salvaging the notion of "immanence-transcendence" is crucial to strike the balance you allude to, in helping us realize that there are, ontologically, superior states or levels of being (transcendence) without losing sight of the "earth" or the dimension of "here-and-now." And it seems to me that most major religious traditions understand or acknowledge this concept, as we find in the Gita, the New Testament, Buddhism (in apophatic form), etc. Even the "Prince of pantheism" - Baruch Spinoza, may not have been, it turns out, a "pantheist" but a "panentheist." And "Nature" when referring to "God" is "natura naturans." So, we can totally infer the notion of "immanence-transcendence" from his system of thought. Right in the beginning of his_Ethics_where he defines "Substance," his definition is consistent with the Scholastic notion of "aseity" or what Aquinas calls "ipsum esse subsistens" or self-subsistent Being itself. Spinoza, thus, eschews the notion of pantheism in a letter to a friend. My point, in any case, is that Spinoza strove to maintain this balance of immanence and transcendence in his conception of the divine and the world, thus his monism with respect to "Substance."

Sunday, March 5, 2017




A Brief Reflection on the Pending Suffering and Contentment in the Surah Ta Ha


After discussing the significance of knowledge and its relation to abiding God’s commands, the surah Ta Ha ends with three points: 1) it shows what will happen to those who don’t heed or reflect on revelations; 2) it shows that there is only one genuine way to “contentment” and it is prayers and respond to our longing for God; 3) and it prioritizes the miracle of the Quran as a rational discourse, constancy, and confirming the revelations before it to any other miraculous sign from God.  I will briefly reflect on each one of these points:

Warning of Suffering as the Outcome of Internal Discordance and Discontentment

“Whoever follows My guidance, when it comes to you [people], will not go astray nor fall into misery, but whoever turns away from it will have a life of great hardship. We shall bring him blind to the Assembly on the Day of Resurrection and he will say, ‘Lord, why did You bring me here blind? I was sighted before!’  God will say, ‘This is how it is: You ignored Our revelations when they came to you, so today you will be ignored.’  This is how We reward those who go too far, and who do not believe in their Lord’s revelations.  The greatest and most enduring punishment is in the Hereafter.  Do they not draw a lesson from the many generations We destroyed before them, through whose dwelling places they now walk? There truly are signs in this for anyone with understanding!” (20: 123-128)

I have been wondering for a long time why the Quran repeats its warning about the Day of Judgement and the pending suffering for those who don’t believe in God, who don’t care about people and don’t do good things that is not only centered on their immediate desires and benefits.  After I went through my own life-experiences and studying philosophy, not merely as an intellectual curiosity, but as a therapeutic spiritual practice, I found all these theories, as imaginative and helpful as they are, can’t reconnect me to my divine source and quench my spiritual thirst.  Human wisdom per se cannot save us, without divine grace.  The suffering of the Day of Judgement for disbelievers and wrongdoers, I came to understand with my flesh, is the consequence of an internal corruption, subtle and imperceptible as it might be.  It is the result of not heeding the divine message and guidance that have been echoing from the dawn of history—I realized it, in horror of what if it is too late, if I find myself immersed in hedonism or lost in nihilism.  Then I have gone too far and have forgotten my source too long, corrupted my existence in vanity—when I reacted harshly to religious excess and bigotry and threw the baby out with the bathwater.   And then I looked back and understood why the Quran, the last revelation, according to the Quran and to the testimony of history, repeatedly warns us of the Day of Judgement.  This is the last reminder; thus to be remembered.

What is the kernel of this last message?  Beside wisdom and law verses, it is a constant reminder that this world of ours is not the only world and we are not to be scattered into nothing after enjoying ourselves for a short period of life on the earth.  It was so difficult for me to accept and digest this.  Now that I read the Quran in a different light, I can see that this skepticism is repeatedly addressed in the Quran.  The Quran reminds us that for God it is easy to bring us and our deeds registered in our body/soul back to life.  I couldn’t reconcile myself with this constant reminder in the Quran that we will suffer in the world to come for our disbelief and evil deeds—and even I found it offensive.  Now it makes much sense to me: it will happen, we will come back to life in absolute awe, fear, and trembling.  The mountains will be blasted to dust and the earth will become an open plane.  The universe is not created in vain and our soul by God’s command is immortal, and we are to see with our own eyes or hear with our own ears, or feel with our whole body and soul the result of our disconnect from or connection to our Source, in a record in which all our actions without exception are registered, like our fingertips.  God created the universe to show the truth to all of God’s creatures so that they arrive at loving-worshiping God with understanding.  The Day of Judgement is the Day of Truly Loving God, not only out of fear, but out of experiencing the loss of forgetfulness or the gain of remembering God with an intense level of understanding.  The truth will be revealed to us and depending on the degrees of separation and hence body/soul corruption, we will end up in hell or heaven.  This will certainly happen. 

You may ask, “how do you know?”  This is my task: to make it clear to my children and to all how through converging all threads, from intuition, everyday struggles, the kind of actions we weave together in response to the whirlwind of our desires, the host of false identities which permeates into our flesh and conscience, the effect of every thought, word, and deed on our bodies, the effect of every single deed on others and the world, how every single event and action will be registered in every cell of our bodies, how to attend and remember God in good faith or false righteous indignation, how to abuse the name of God, how to forget the purpose and meaning of life in nihilism, or to be ensnared by false prophets and all-knowers, how to fall into the principle of pleasure or making ideologies of worldly heavens, and how God revealed God’s grace to awaken me in fear and trembling and touched my soul to say all these things…so that to remember revelations and to say with absolute certainty: “This will certainly happen.”    

As an atheist, I believed and lived my materialistic view in a kind of hedonism and scientific-philosophical-political devotion.  So, I might have tried to do some good, but as I always identified my life with a transient matter coalesced into life by accidental interaction of dead particles to be evaporated into nothing soon, I found the only consolation by thinking that no one will remember me in a hundred years or so, dependent on the illusion of one’s “legacy” in this futile life.  It took a life, and seeing the effects of disbelief and evil deeds with my own eyes and with the grace of God, that I awakened startlingly from my materialistic slumber.  I explored the existential effect of atheistic philosophies of Russell, Quine, Dennett, Chomsky, etc. on the one hand, and Marx, Nietzsche, Mill, Sartre, and Foucault, and the same, on the other[1].  But because of my constant yearning for God in misery, God clearly showed my state of falling to me and shook me in perplexity and awe to see with my own eyes that everything is in God’s hands, what I found later repeatedly asserted by revelations and especially in the Quran:

They ask you [Prophet] about the mountains: say, ‘[On that Day] my Lord will blast them into dust and leave a flat plain, with no peak or trough to be seen.  On that Day, people will follow the summoner from whom there is no escape; every voice will be hushed for the Lord of Mercy; only whispers will be heard. 109On that Day, intercession will be useless except from those to whom the Lord of Mercy has granted permission and whose words He approves– He knows what is before and behind them, though they do not comprehend Him– and [all] faces will be humbled before the Living, Ever Watchful One. Those burdened with evil deeds will despair, but whoever has done righteous deeds and believed need have no fear of injustice or deprivation.’ We have sent the Quran down in the Arabic tongue and given all kinds of warnings in it, so that they may beware or take heed– exalted be God, the one who is truly in control.” (20:105-114) 

The inner wisdom of this event has unfolded in our historical-existential longing and in the whole body of revelations.  I was wondering in perplexity in the desert of my existence asking myself: “Why am I here?  I know I exist and I will die.  But why?  How can I reconcile the magic of my existence with the agony of my death destiny?  Why do we die?”  How many entertainments, drugs, theories did I use to normalize death?  Everyone desires dignity and facing one’s death in content and courage, but no pretention of courage and knowledge and no theoretical explanation can give us “content” and “connection” in the face of death, but the praise of God.  The next passage in the surah Ta Ha reveals this:

If it were not for a preordained Word from your Lord [Prophet], they would already have been destroyed. Their time has been set, so [Prophet] be patient with what they say– celebrate the praise of your Lord, before the rising and setting of the sun, celebrate His praise during the night, and at the beginning and end of the day, so that you may find contentment– and do not gaze longingly at what We have given some of them to enjoy, the finery of this present life: We test them through this, but the provision of your Lord is better and more lasting. Order your people to pray, and pray steadfastly yourself. We are not asking you to give Us provision; We provide for you, and the rewards of the Hereafter belong to the devout.” (20:129-132)

This point comes heavy to our secular and atheistic ears.  We are enchanted with scientism, which is indeed a distortion of science into sheer materialism and reducing everything into deterministic behavior of dead particles.  According to atheistic scientists, life is an accidence or inevitable outcome of chaos—depending on how one interprets the behavior of these dead particle.  Genuine science of the future will question materialism and reductionism altogether, as Chomsky, Nagel, and Heidegger do from different points of view.  Genuine science one day will heed existential analysis of human beings by Heidegger and his holistic phenomenology of Being-in-the-world and human thinking as clearing (Lichtung) of Being.  Genuine science will one day transcend its one dimensional foundational thesis that “only the quantifiable is real”.

In his review to Dennett’s last book, From Bacteria to Bach and Back: The Evolution of Minds, Nagel wrote:

There is no reason to go through such mental contortions in the name of science. The spectacular progress of the physical sciences since the seventeenth century was made possible by the exclusion of the mental from their purview. To say that there is more to reality than physics can account for is not a piece of mysticism: it is an acknowledgment that we are nowhere near a theory of everything, and that science will have to expand to accommodate facts of a kind fundamentally different from those that physics is designed to explain. It should not disturb us that this may have radical consequences, especially for Dennett’s favorite natural science, biology: the theory of evolution, which in its current form is a purely physical theory, may have to incorporate nonphysical factors to account for consciousness, if consciousness is not, as he thinks, an illusion. Materialism remains a widespread view, but science does not progress by tailoring the data to fit a prevailing theory.”

We don't need to be philosopher to understand this: what we know about the phenomenal world is only the tip of iceberg.   Assuming scientific image is perfect and reveals the whole truth as it-is-in-itself is not scientific and doesn't fit in scientific image, simply because human comprehension of the world and existence hasn't ended yet. We can't take any piece of latest scientific discovery as the ultimate, nor can we take a metaphysical generalization such as materialism and physicalism as "scientific" and bring faith in it, as religious scientism does. We have done this constantly in the course of history and we failed and again Dennett urges us philosophically fall into the same pitfall and declare that everything can be explained by materialistic reductionism. Beside the fact that both materialism and reductionism methodologically and philosophically are deeply questionable. Read Nagel, Chomsky, and Heidegger, etc.

Thanks God, I have been in constant existential awe in my life, not to be lulled by scientism or postmodernism.  No human wisdom, scientific explanation, or spiritual practice could quench my existential thirst.  Nothing could grab or satisfy me.  Only the grace of God saved me.  And this awaking was like remembering the primordial memory of a forgotten love.  I realized this love was deeply rooted in my heart.  All the scientific and existential questions and inquisitiveness, all the moral dilemmas, the desire for justice and pangs of conscience are arrows of longing for God.  The disconnection between my soul and God was and is hell. 

Hence, the more we distance ourselves from God or the Nameless, which means not remembering God, the more we fall in agony and seek healing in wrong places, in hedonism, materialism or physicalism, in nature worship, shamanism, humanly fashioned spiritual practices—as wise and practical as they may sound, they can never substitute revelations.  God sent us revelations to show us the way and warned us that disconnection from God will make us incompatible and incommensurable with God in the world to come.  Revelations tell us that whatever we do, we do to ourselves, every thought, word, and action affects our body and memory, our consciousness and unconsciousness.  Depending on seeing myself as an accident or connected to God, I choose different ways to live.  In response to my longing for the source of my existence and the nihilistic pity that life is just a meaningless moment, I sought to maximize my pleasure in this passing world, as I used to say: “I live only one life, or I come to life only one time.”  I didn’t become a sadistic and murderous character.  Pursuing sciences and philosophy is a divine practice.  However, I was reckless and followed my lowest desires, when I had a choice not to—because this was the only life, an accidental meaningless mirage, so why not to?  I see this deviation and falling state in all atheistic philosophers, in Russell, Mill, Nietzsche, Marx, Foucault, and Chomsky even if they manage to live a life of inquiry.  The conscience and devotion that urged them to proceed can’t be explained by their own materialistic or atheistic philosophies.  They couldn’t see that our devotion and conscience are God given gifts.  It is obvious that anyone who thinks conscience and devotion are tools of biological evolution and survival in this contingent life is prone to be reckless and follows one’s lowest desire, when the going gets tough.  And in most cases, the divine hold of conscience in us is so strong that potentially we are ready to devote our life to a cause, as so many atheists do, but spiritually we are hollowed in the oblivion of God.       


The disbelievers say, ‘Why does he not bring us a sign from his Lord?’ Have they not been given clear proof confirming what was in the earlier scriptures? If We had destroyed them through punishment before this Messenger came, they would have said, ‘Lord, if only You had sent us a messenger, we could have followed Your revelations before we suffered humiliation and disgrace!’ [Prophet], say, ‘We are all waiting, so you carry on waiting: you will come to learn who has followed the even path, and been rightly guided.’” (20:133-135)




[1] I found a real fresh air in Heidegger’s philosophy and can’t categorize him under atheism as some do.  He has really transformed Western philosophy and it is too soon to fathom the effect of his philosophy.  To some extent, Heidegger helped me experience a paradigm shift and to leap out of the tight straightjacket of materialism, subjectivism, reductionism, relativism, and nihilism.  But he fell and didn’t surrender to divine wisdom and revelations and sought to arrive at the Truth through narrow spring of historical-essential-thinking-Being.  Heidegger was a bridge to take me to a leap from Being to be rescued by the grace of God.