Saturday, January 20, 2018


Don't Forget the Direction: from Beast to Human, from Human to Approximate God


It was not without purpose that We created the heavens and the earth and everything in between. That may be what the disbelievers assume– how they will suffer from the Fire!– but would We treat those who believe and do good deeds and those who spread corruption on earth as equal? Would We treat those who are aware of God and those who recklessly break all bounds in the same way?  This is a blessed Scripture which We sent down to you [Muhammad], for people to think about its messages, and for those with understanding to take heed.” (38:27-29) 

Just before these verses, we have the story of King David who followed his own desire and so was diverted from God’s path.  In the above passage, God relates “not following one’s whims, otherwise consequences will be ensued” to the purpose of creating the heavens and the earth.  Why?  The reason is mentioned next: good (doing good deeds and are aware of God) and bad (those who spread corruption and recklessly break all bounds) are not equal.  Let’s reflect: the purpose of creating the heavens and the earth is to master one’s desires, not following one’s whims, and walk the path of doing good, sacrificing, and approximating God.  Then in the next passage, God tells the story of Solomon and how at one point he wavered to succumb to the beauties of the world too much that he forgot God.  Pay attention to the reason he brings:   

We gave David, Solomon. He was an excellent servant who always turned to God.  When well-bred light-footed horses were paraded before him near the close of day, he kept saying, ‘My love of fine things is part of my remembering my Lord!’ until [the horses] disappeared from sight– ‘Bring them back!’ [he said] and started to stroke their legs and necks. [Some say that the horses distracted Solomon from remembering his Lord and that he slaughtered the horses in anger at his having forgotten the afternoon prayer.]  We certainly tested Solomon, reducing him to a mere skeleton on his throne. [According to Razi, quoting linguistic usage in Arabic, this is interpreted to mean that Solomon became so ill that he was like a walking skeleton.]  He turned to Us and prayed: ‘Lord forgive me! Grant me such power as no one after me will have– You are the Most Generous Provider.’  So We gave him power over the wind, which at his request ran gently wherever he willed, and the jinn––every kind of builder and diver and others chained in fetters. ‘This is Our gift, so give or withhold as you wish without account.’  His reward will be nearness to Us, and a good place to return to.” (38:27-40)

So many of us define our attraction to beauties of the world as part of remembering God.  But then God turned Solomon to a skeleton because he forgot to pray to God while attending beautiful horses.  God wanted to remind him that he is bringing excuses to follow his desires.  This doesn’t mean that God denies us the gift of beauties and power of nature, because after Solomon repents, God gives him power over wind and so many gifts.  But God admonishes us not to delude ourselves and justify our negligence of God and our direction from beast to human, and from human to approximate God by indulging in beautiful things.  Again, join this rationale (forgetting to pray to God) and the purpose of creating the heavens and the earth: we will follow our desires when we forget God.  In following our desires (beauty [for Solomon], sexual desires [for David]) we will center upon our own ego and inclinations and are prone to break recklessly all bounds.  Breaking the bounds is not without consequence, it will modify something within our body and soul.  This is the law of Karma and we ought to pay the price to rectify the wrong done to others and hence to our own body and soul--- when we forget the direction of our spiritual growth: from beast to human and from human to approximate God.  Our self-centeredness will spread corruption on the earth.  God doesn’t have vile and vain desires and knows our very constitution is based on desires and needs and prone to fall.  So, God asks us to master (not deny) those desires and not break recklessly all bounds for those desires and walk the direction of existence: the path to God and Good.   

Wednesday, January 10, 2018


A Theodicy

Only by Our mercy could they be reprieved to enjoy life for a while. Yet when they are told, ‘Beware of what lies before and behind you, so that you may be given mercy,’ they ignore every single sign that comes to them from their Lord, and when they are told, ‘Give to others out of what God has provided for you,’ the disbelievers say to the believers, ‘Why should we feed those that God could feed if He wanted? You must be deeply misguided.’ (36:44-47)

This is a critical point to ponder: why should we feed those that God could feed if He wanted?  Indeed, in this question, God is addressing the point of creating the earth and heavens and the problem of evil.  Lactantius ascribed the following to Epicurus:

God, he says, either wishes to take away evils, and is unable; or He is able, and is unwilling; or He is neither willing nor able, or He is both willing and able. If He is willing and is unable, He is feeble, which is not in accordance with the character of God; if He is able and unwilling, He is envious, which is equally at variance with God; if He is neither willing nor able, He is both envious and feeble, and therefore not God; if He is both willing and able, which alone is suitable to God, from what source then are evils? Or why does He not remove them? (De Ira Dei , https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Epicurus)

Epicurus and Voltaire (in Candid) and others repeatedly raise the question of evil; and yet I feel they lack imagination.  In the verses above disbelievers raise the same question.  What would be the answer?  

In the surah The Poets, God sooths the Prophet: “are you going to worry yourself to death because they will not believe?  If We had wished, We could have sent them down a sign from heaven, at which their necks would stay bowed in utter humility.” (26:3-4)

In the Quran, God is explicit about the fact that the world has been created for a reason and purpose.  Surely, we see so many die in earthquakes, storms, cancer, and other sicknesses.  Why should we call it the problem of evil?  We need to remember four points:

1)      We are living in a suffering and imperfect world so that we may grow and arrive at God through guidance and our own free will.  We are the viceregents on this planet, here to take care of life and in this way to be cultivated.  Through helping others in need, we grow spiritually and learn to abandon our close-mindedness and self-centeredness.  Of course, God is capable of everything.  To reflect on Epicurus’ question, one may say God is able, willing, and wishes to take away evils.  But then what is the relation between God and human beings?  What happens to our autonomy and cultivation?  Asking why God doesn’t solve all problems is seeing ourselves as automata in the eyes of God, who can be programmed like a robot to be “good”.  But this artificial goodness is against human autonomy to realize and experience God’s theonomy within and without.

In the Quran God says:

To each community among you has been prescribed a Law and a way of life. If God had so willed He would have made you a single people, but His plan is to test you in what He has given you: so strive as in a race in all virtues. The goal of you all is to God; it is He that will show you the truth of the matters in which you differ. (5:48)
 
And this one:

No misfortune can happen, either in the earth or in yourselves, that was not set down in writing before We brought it into being––that is easy for God–– so you need not grieve for what you miss or gloat over what you gain. God does not love the conceited, the boastful. (57:22-24)

2)      We are unable to understand the ultimate reason of sufferings on the earth.  We see so many people suffer in sicknesses, natural disasters, wars, and injustice.  We are here to help others. Period.  Why do so many children have to suffer?  We ask this question from a limited point of view.  From the inside of human needs and desires we make a series of judgments and set these judgments as the measure of good and evil.  However, if we use our imagination, it is not difficult to see that we don’t have the big picture. 

In the Quran, we have the story of a divine person who has knowledge of the future and Moses wants to travel with him to obtain divine wisdom.  In the later literature, this divine person was called “Khidhr”.  Khidhr asks Moses to be patient as Moses has no knowledge of the future.  Moses promises to be patient.  Khidhr makes holes in the boat of a poor fisher, repairs a ruined wall, and kills a boy.  Every time Moses objects to his behavior.  After explaining the wisdom of his actions, Khidhr leaves Moses.  Khidhr says that he made holes in the boat to save the boat from being confiscated by a tyrant king, repaired the wall to secure the inheritance of two orphans beneath the wall, and killed the boy because he would become a mischievous and rebellious disbeliever who would cause suffering for his pious parents.  When I was an atheist, I was upset especially with killing the boy.  But this passage says all that we want to know about “the problem of evil” and theodicy.  Our laws and regulations, our Human Rights and due process are all valuable means for limited beings like us to be just.  These limits are set by God, and the Quran repeatedly asks humans not to exceed the limit or kill children or unjustifiably kill people.  The Quran says that life is sacred and even killing one person unjustly is like killing the whole human species (5:32).  Even in the story of Abraham and sacrificing his son, the Quran emphasizes that:

When the boy was old enough to work with his father, Abraham said, ‘My son, I have seen myself sacrificing you in a dream. What do you think?’ He said, ‘Father, do as you are commanded and, God willing, you will find me steadfast.’ When they had both submitted to God, and he had laid his son down on the side of his face, We called out to him, ‘Abraham, you have fulfilled the dream.’ This is how We reward those who do good– it was a test to prove– (37:102-106)

So, God has forbidden us to kill children and the command to test Abraham also didn’t come to him until his son could make a judgement and decide for himself.  However, I couldn’t digest the fact that in the story of Khidhr and Moses, Khidhr kills the young boy and again the anguish of finding a theodicy and not being able to understand Khidhr’s actions, kept on ringing in my ears and head, and so I wrote:

If I were the sojourner of Khidhr I would not be perplexed by his making a hole in a boat, because I could imagine there was somehow longer-term goodness in this action.  Remember Khidhr is the representative of a benevolent God whose actions may seem violating some ethics (like making a hole in a boat) but still it is for a further ethical goodness.  This is what Kierkegaard calls “teleological suspension of the ethical”.  I would be patient when Khidhr asked me to repair a wall in the middle of nowhere, again because I believe in his goodness and extraordinary vision and knowledge of future.  But when he killed the child or before committing the crime I would hold his hand and would adamantly tell him this could not be the command of God.  Khidhr would argue with me that, no it is all godly because this young boy will become an in-obedient indolent and insolent adult and his parents will suffer from his denial of religion and criminal character [18:80. “As for the youth, his parents were people of faith, and we feared that he would grieve them by obstinate rebellion and ingratitude.”]  I still would say to Khidhr: this argument is so loose and groundless that I doubt it has come from God.  You say because this boy will become, say, Hitler, Antichrist, or Dajjal, so I have to kill him now.  I say this is not godly and God doesn’t ask for it.  God doesn’t ask you to kill a child, who has not yet committed any crime, for his possible future crimes.  If everything about our lives is so determined, then there is no point of making a choice and act for betterment or even repent.  Secondly, we don’t punish people for what they have not yet done but is likely to do in the long run.  Even preeminent wars have rules.  The ethical act has INTRINSIC and KARMIC value, not committing murder has INTRINSIC and KARMIC value.  To repent from killing and harming has an intrinsic and karmic value. They are not INSTRUMENTAL only for some further good.  Therefore, if you, Khidhr, kill this young boy now, it is Unjust, and God cannot be unjust.

Can you see where I went wrong?  I am applying the ethical measures for human beings to God.  The sense of God’s mercy and justice and the way God implements them is different from us.  For limited beings like us, who are blind to the big picture, the ethical has an intrinsic value as we are finite bodies literally building up our character and destiny by our actions and habit.  This is a reason that Aristotle’s virtue ethics makes sense to us.  And Gandhi’s words are endearing: “Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions. Your actions become your habits. Your habits become your values. Your values become your destiny.” 

However, God is the source of the ethical and spiritual and has an unclouded vision of the beginning and the end of the story.  God is also not a limited body/soul like us whose actions create our destiny.  God’s actions are destiny for all living beings and for the cosmos.  My false analogy resonates with the anguish of the problem of evil, as we understand it: seeing dying children in the hospitals and all those who die in natural disasters and wars and similar destructions.  This picture doesn’t fit OUR value judgements, simply because we are not in a position to understand it.  However, God’s justice and mercy may include killing young children and even generations and species, as God’s ethics consist of both the intrinsic and extrinsic value of actions at the same time.  To understand my point let’s consider Kant’s non-consequentialist deontology and Mill’s consequentialist utilitarianism.  Kant emphasizes good will and intention in performing one’s duty as the measure of the ethical, and Mill considers the consequence of actions and how they maximize the greatest happiness for the most.  Well, for God the intrinsic value of “good will” and the extrinsic value of “good consequence” are superimposed upon each other.  This means that God’s action at the same time comes from “good will” and aims at the “good consequence” spontaneously and coextensively, because God is omniscient and omnipotent. 

This means God’s “ethics” doesn’t construct God’s “ethos” (habit, custom, character).  God’s discernment and discretion is how life in the world can take the direction of goodness, justice, balance, and purity, the direction of Good. God has set ethical limits for us for this purpose.  In the final analysis and picture, when we lose sight of the right direction and create corrupt and unjust systems and societies, our “ethos” becomes contagious and epidemic to our own offspring and others, and God can see the future and what is best for our “ethos.”  So, it is completely just and meaningful for God, NOT US, to destroy even whole generations of people and their children, if God deems that this corrupt system has no future and their only positive effect is to become a sign at the threshold of the road to perdition: the Pharaoh’s people, as well as those of Noah, Lot, Saleh, Hud, Shoaib… This is the same with natural disasters. 

3)      Let’s use this thought experiment: Imagine we want to save an endangered species, and so we create a special habitat for them to be safe from excessive danger. We know that these animals will deteriorate if we turn them into pets. They have to move and have a natural life style, thus we let some of the predators in to stimulate them to be active for survival. Some of them may die due to their frail predisposition, but based on our probabilistic calculations, we know the species as a whole will flourish and survive. In this thought experiment, though the analogy is barely similar to our love relationship with God, we can see that the predator (evil or Satan) is used as the condition of survival and growth of a species. In our thought experiment, we are the master of process and know the outcome, and in this process the species will prosper and flourish. And it doesn’t mean that the predator and the endangered species are the same, on the contrary, the ultimate goal is to save the endangered species from the domination of predators.

4)      In Surah 41: (Made Distinct) the Quran says: “Good and evil cannot be equal. Repel evil with what is better and your enemy will become as close as an old and valued friend, but only those who are steadfast in patience, only those who are blessed with great righteousness, will attain to such goodness” (41: 34). This is an example of how, despite the fact that good and evil are separate, in repelling evil with good, we grow and purify ourselves from evil by doing good.
Obviously, the Quran is saying that even if good and evil are separate, God has complete knowledge about how things will unfold and through affliction and reward, God examines us and lets us grow. What is the direction of cultivation? To become one in intention, thoughts, words, and deeds and to achieve the intrinsic value of the ethical in worshipping God and having God-consciousness. What is the point of having God-consciousness?  To arrive at our origin and destination and to be released from despair, nihilism, and disconnect.  We learn to repel evil from our divine constitution by worshipping God and doing good, and arriving at the beginning and the end, which is the love of God, but meanwhile we mature, absorbing the intrinsic value of having a divine self, the intrinsic value of being moral, and the intrinsic value of being ethically creative: “Keep up the prayer at both ends of the day, and during parts of the night, for good things drive bad away—this is a reminder for those who are aware” (11:114). And human beings desire the process and the end for its intrinsic value, and this is possible only through earning it: “God would never change a favor It had conferred on a people unless they changed what was within themselves.” (8:53)

Conclusion: in the Quran, God repeatedly says: God did create the heavens and earth (and human beings and life in general) for a serious purpose.  What is this?  It is a movement from life to death and from death to life.  But it is not an absurd Sisyphean cycle.  It has a purpose.  It cultivates us and all living beings in the universe.  It teaches us—life as such.  It helps us to grow amid suffering and agony of life and death.  The movement of life and death ends in life and not death.  We will become who we are seeded to become.  We can make a choice between life and death.  Life is love and taqwa (God-consciousness) and death is corruption in a sheer desire for survival, power, and pleasure.  

“We grant the Home in the Hereafter to those who do not seek superiority on earth or spread corruption: the happy ending is awarded to those who are mindful of God.”  (28:83)


Monday, January 8, 2018



جهنم خدا عین عدالت و رحمت است

این سؤال ممکن است در ذهن بیاید که آیا جهنم خدا نمودار نوعی خشم و بغض و انتقام از جانب خدا نیست؟  آیا ما باید خدا را انسانوار در نظر آوریم که از روی عصبانیت و خشم عمل می کند؟ خدا در قرآن به انسان می گوید:
«و آنچه به شما داده شده برخوردارى از زندگى دنياست و آنچه پيش خداست براى كسانى كه گرويده‏ اند و به پروردگارشان اعتماد دارند بهتر و پايدارتر است: كسانى كه از گناهان بزرگ و زشتكاريها پرهیز می کنند و چون به خشم ‏آيند درمى‏ گذرند؛ و كسانى كه [به نداى] پروردگارشان را پاسخ داده و نماز برپا می کنند و در ميانشان مشورت می کنند و از آنچه روزيشان داده‏ ايم انفاق مى كنند؛ و كسانى كه چون ستم بر ايشان رسد يارى مى ‏جويند [و به انتقام بر مى ‏خيزند]؛ و جزاى بدى مانند آن بدى است، پس هر كه گذشت کند و نيكوكارى كند پاداش او با خداست که به راستى او ستمگران را دوست نمى دارد؛ و هر كه پس از ستم [ديدن] خود يارى جويد [و انتقام گيرد] راه [نكوهشى] بر ايشان نيست؛ راه [نكوهش] تنها بر كسانى است كه به مردم ستم مى كنند و در [روى] زمين به ناحق سر برمى دارند. آنان عذابى دردناك [در پيش] خواهند داشت؛ و هر كه صبر كند و گذشت کند، مسلما اين [خويشتن دارى حاكى] از اراده قوى [در] كارهاست.
و هر كه را خدا بى‏ راه گذارد پس از او يار [و ياور]ى نخواهد داشت و ستمگران را مى ‏بينى كه چون عذاب را بنگرند مى‏ گويند آيا راهى براى برگشتن [به دنيا] هست.» (۴۲:۳۶-۴۴)
واضح است که خداوند عمل از روی خشم را نادرست می داند و گذشت را بهتر از قصاص می داند.  پس جهنم چیست؟ در ادامه همین آیات می گوید:
«آنان را مى ‏بينى [كه چون] بر [آتش] عرضه مى ‏شوند از خواری زبون شده‏ اند، زيرچشمى مى ‏نگرند و كسانى كه گرويده‏ اند مى‏ گويند در حقيقت زيانكاران كسانى‏ اند كه روز قيامت‏ خودشان و كسانشان را دچار زيان كرده‏ اند. آرى ستمكاران در عذابى پايدارند و براى آنان دوستانى [ديگر] نيست كه آنها را در برابر خدا يارى كنند و هر كه را خدا بى‏ راه گذارد هيچ راهى براى او نخواهد بود. پيش از آنكه روزى فرا رسد كه آن را از جانب خدا برگشتى نباشد. نداى پروردگارتان را، پيش از آنكه روزى بيايد كه در برابر امر الهى بازگشتى نداشته باشید، بپذيريد، در چنين روزى شما را پناهگاهى نيست، و شما را مجال انكارى نيست‏.» (۴۲:۴۵-۴۷)
اگر دینهای اهل کتاب (یهودیت، مسیحیت، و اسلام)، علی رغم انحراف ها، یک ایده پیشرونده کلی داشته باشند اینست که خداوند از دنیا نیست. ما نمی توانیم خصوصیات دنیوی خویش را به خدا اطلاق کنیم.  خداوند نا دیدنی و غیر قابل وصف است، ورای ۹۹ اسم. پس جهنم چیست؟  در قرآن خدا این را روشن می کند که:
۱.همه چیز به دقت در «دفتری» ضبط شده است.
۲.در روز قیامت دهان ما بسته و بدنهایمان زبان باز خواهند کرد. برای مثال پاهایمان از جاهایی که رفته ایم با خبرمان خواهند کرد. چشمهایمان چیزهایی را که به آن روی آوردیم و دیدیم مجسم خواهند کرد. به تعبیری هرچه که می کنیم در اجزاء بدنمان ثبت می شود.
۳.در آن روز به هیچ کس به اندازه یک ارزن هم ظلم نخواهد شد. برعکس، هر کس کمی خوبی کرده باشد بیشتر دریافت خواهد کرد.
۴.جسم و روح ما با نیایش خدا تغذیه میشود. این هدف و وسیله زندگی است. سفر بشر در جهان هستی برای اینست تا به این حقیقت با پوست و گوشت و جان خود برسد.  این اصل وابستگی ذاتی ما به خداست. این اصل، مستلزم فروتنی و دیدن ناچیزی وجود خویش است تا شایسته اتصال نور درون-ذاتی مان به خدا شویم.  این راه مستقیم است. هر راه دیگر: راه سکولاریسم، مارکسیسم، لیبرالیسم، «فاعل خود مختار» (autonomous subject)، ماتریالیسم، راه روحانیت بی خدا و عصر جدیدی... و حتی راه فرزانگانی چون بودا و کنفسیوس و هر راه دیگری در تحلیل نهایی به بن بست می رسد، مگر اینکه به پرستش خدا به عنوان معنا و هدف هر لحظه آگاه و مؤمن شویم. ابراز استقلال از خدا تنها یک توهم نیست. مانند ابراز استقلال سلولهای سرطانی، ابراز استقلال از خدا، برای روح و جسم ما عواقبی دارد. 
۵. این عواقب در اجزاء بدن و روح ما ثبت می شود و از نقطه معینی، آنگاه که بیش از اندازه از خدا دور شویم، جهنمی میشویم. بسیاری به این حقیقت کورند. و این کوری درجات دارد. کسی که از تجربه خدا دور می افتد اگر روی به خدا بر گرداند می تواند جهت را معکوس کند: از کوری به بینایی قدم بر دارد... اما نه مثل فرعون در آخرین نفس.
۶.دوزخ جای انتقام نیست. نتیجه عمل ماست و چه کس از نیت و خرد خدا خبر دارد؟ شاید این همان درمان آلودگی بیش از اندازه است، و در تحلیل نهایی، راه رستگاری برای دوزخیان. درباره آنچه که ورای ماست باید خاموش ماند.
۷.از این نقطه نظر جهنم عین عدالت و رحمت خداست.  پس جز احساس ترحم، به رحمت عمل خدا، بنا به دلایل بالا، شک نباید کرد.


Thursday, December 28, 2017


The Light in My Fragile House


These are the hands of John Polivka, before the last breaths of his pending death last night (12/27/2017). After years, for the first-time tears stung his eyes. A few months ago, he was a strong man who was famous for being a stubborn atheist who couldn’t stand anything which wasn’t logical according to him. He is like a brother to me and a second father to my son. In his loss, I cried deeply. The first part is the conclusion of my lifelong reflection on divine fragility of human being. And the second part is a didactic discussion on how I arrived to the first part:


The Light in My Fragile House

The theonomous subject
Within my blood.
When I was crumbled upon myself,
Like the play paper of cats,
When I collapsed,
Like the children’s house of sands,
I realized the secret of light with me:
I am the folding of disconnection and connection,
I am the suspension of equilibrium between belonging and independence,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between the inside and outside,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between the individual and society,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between the concept and the world,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between the particular and the universal,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between love and need,
I am the suspension of belonging-equilibrium between this speck of dust and the presence of God.


The Didactic Discussion


When the glorious feeling of existence,
Within the healthy blood of my body
Opened up the pores of my skin to the world,
I thought I am something of my own:
Independent, strong,
Standing upon the throne of my capabilities,
And along with Nietzsche:
Taking the power of my health,
As the ground of my own existence,
Thus calling myself Übermensch god,
And falling into abyss of disconnection.
I had to live the Way, the Night, and the Day,
Until I crumbled upon myself,
Like the play paper of cats,
To fall apart,
Like children’s house of sands.
I had to live the 19th century,
In the contradictory nightmare of the delusion of animal-human,
In the constant conflict between hedonism,
The worship of human-species,
And hysteric laughter of nihilism,
The human of Darwin and Marx:
The discoverer of the laws of evolution and social revolution,
Creatures of dead material conditions,
The human of Nietzsche: pride of the power of health
And the self-destructive embodiment of
“I am the creator of my own values.”
The human of John Stuart Mill:
The calculus machine of pleasure.
I had to live the 20th century:
With Russell, Wittgenstein, and Goodman
With Quine, Gödel, and Chomsky
And now with the new Golden Calves:
Žižek, Badiou, and Deleuze…

To understand that: “The difficulty is to realize the groundlessness of our believing.”
(Philosophical Investigations, Wittgenstein: 166)

And with Foucault to live the death of autonomous subject,
In the depth of nothingness.
The fool who thinks one has anything of oneself,
The one who has no memory of the destruction of towers and palaces and civilizations,
The fool who boasts at one’s beauty and health,
Because one hasn’t yet lived the agony of being crumbled,
The fool who assumes
The pure and practical reason
Is only a tool for the evolution of animal human for survival,
And then ridiculously calls one an independent “autonomous subject”.
The fool when the golden rains of vision and inspirations
Fall upon them,
And they call them their own.
Because the breath that we inhale and exhale,
And the joy and happiness that shroud our hearts,
The experience of existence and the wonder of being,
Nothing,
Is my own.
I have lived this in certainty.
And the fool who from this lived experience,
With the chaotic force of negation,
Does hollow human being from within,
And declares the death of subject,
And slips in relativism, nihilism, and self-destruction.




این دستهای جان پولیوکا ست در آخرین نفسهای زندگی اش پیش از مرگ، دیشب (12/28/2017) . پس از سالها قطرات اشکی بر چشمهایش لغزید. چند ماه پیش مرد تنومندی بود با اعتقادی راسخ به راه مصرانه خویش. معروف بود به لجوج بی دینی که هیچ حرفِ به زعم او غیر منطقی را نمی توانست تاب آرد. برای من مثل برادر بود. برای پسرم مثل پدر دوم. در سوگش به  دریغی تلخ گریستم. این شعر را پس از دیدن این عکس تمام کردم


«نوری در خانه شکننده من»

به فاعل خدا مختار (theonomous subject)
،در خون خویش رسیدم
آنگاه که مچاله شدم
چون کاغذ بازی گربه ها
آنوقت که فرو ریختم
،جون خانه شنی بچه ها
:و راز نور را تجربه کردم
من—این تا شدگیِ جدایی و اتصال
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق و استقلال
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق درون و بیرون
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق فرد و اجتماع
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق مفهوم و دنیا
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق خاص و عام
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق عشق و نیاز
من—این تعلیق تعادل تعلق جسم خاکی و حضور خدا

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«بحث آموزشی»

وقتی که احساس اعظم بودن
در خون سلامت جسم من 
منافذ بودنم را باز کرد به جهان
:من فکر کردم که چیزی از آن خویش
مستقل، مستحکم، استاده بر سریر توانایی خویش
و همراه با نیچه: ذات قدرت سلامت خویش را 
دلیل بودن خویش پنداشتم
پس خویش را ابر مرد و خداوندگار خویش نامیدم
و در قعر انفصال فرو رفتم
به چه دل خوش کرده بودی پولیوکا؟

باید می زیستیم: راه را و شب را و روز را
تا بر هم مچاله شوم
،چون کاغذ بازی گربه ها
بر هم فرو ریزم
،چون خانه شنی بچه ها
باید قرن نوزدهم را می زیستم
در کابوس متناقض توهم حیوان-انسان 
،در تعارض دائمی لذت جویی، پرستش نوع انسان 
.و خنده های هیستریک پوچ گرایی

انسان داروین و مارکس: کاشف قانون تکامل و انقلاب اجتماعی 
،مخلوق شرایط مادیِ بیجان 
انسان نیچه: فخر بر قدرت سلامت
«.و تجسم خود-ویرانگر «من خالق ارزشهای خویشم
انسان استوارت میل: ماشین محاسبه لذت
،چو رهنمون عمل اخلاقی

باید قرن بیستم را می زیستم
آنگاه که با راسل، ویتگنشتاین، و گودمن
با کواین، گودل، و چامسکی
...و حالا با گوساله های سامری جدید: ژیژک، بدیو، دلوز

(بفهمم که «دشواری، تشخیص بی اساسی [منطقی] باور کردن ماست» (ویتگنشتاین

"The difficulty is to realize the groundlessness of our believing."
(Philosophical Investigations, Wittgenstein: 166)  

(the death of subject) و با فوکو مرگ فاعل خودمختار 
.را در بطن هیچی زندگی کنم

احمق مردا که تصور کند که چیزی از آن خویش دارد
.که هیچ یادی از تاریخ ویرانی برجها و کاخها و تمدن ها ندارد

احمق مردا که بر زیبایی و سلامت خویش فخر برد
.که رنج و مچالگی را هنوز نزیسته است

احمق مردا که گمان دارد 
خرد نظری و عملی 
تنها ابزار تکامل حیوانی بشر برای بقاست
    .نامد ( autonomous subject)و بعد مضحکه وار خویش را فاعل خود مختار 

احمق مردا که وقتی باران های طلایی بصیرت و الهام بر او فرو می ریزد
خویش را مستقل تصور کند
زیرا نفسی که فرو می رود و بر می آید
احساس وجد و مسرتی که بر دل می نشیند
تجربه بودن و حیرت از هستی
هیچکـــــــــــــــــــــــــــدام
از آن من نیست
.این را به یقین زیسته ام

و احمق مردا که از این تجربه زیسته
با نیروی آشوبگر نفی 
انسان را از درون تهی کند
و مرگ سوبژه را اعلام دارد
و به نسبی گرایی و پوچی و خود ویرانی
.فرو لغزد

Sunday, December 17, 2017


Sacrifice As the Essence of Transcendental God


What is it that draws people like Chomsky, Martin Luther King, Gandhi, Jesus, and Muhammad to serve people without any demand for a reward?  Ethical egoism argues that everybody selfishly enjoys what they do.  Hitler and Mother Theresa in this sense are equal. But this view is like air that can go in any hole but doesn’t open any door.  It confounds the subject and object of desire.  An egoist’s subject and object of desire are the same, but for an altruist the object of desire is different from the subject.  Let’s put side this Ayn Rand-ish superficiality.  What urges us to devote our lives to the good and people?  To sacrifice our lives for others?  Chomsky would answer that morality is innate and wired into our linguistic and cognitive capacities and is registered in our genes.  To this extent, biological and psychological evolutionary theories would agree with Chomsky.  Simply, the altruistic and devotional actions of the individual are for the survival of the species. The problem with this kind of interpretation is that it is focused on the survival of species. So, to the extend that the survival of species is served - massacre, rape, and egotism are also justified.  From the point of view of functionality and utility, this interpretation doesn’t even serve the survival of species, because I can’t raise my children to become altruistic with this kind of interpretations.

My supposition is that human devotion and sacrifice are rooted in something else. This is the transcendental and unconditional love of God, which God blew into the human soul and which at the same time determined our evolutionary direction: self-sacrificing action and understanding the logic of sacrifice, is the understanding-experience of God.

How? God doesn’t lose anything in sacrifice.  I have been occupied with the thought of how the love of an eternal and self-sufficient God is possible.

I assume that the soul [image] that the transcendental God - far from worldly and human attributes, -has blown into human soul is this transcendental and pure love. It is that divine love that gives and never receives anything.  I assume that our evolutionary direction is to live and understand this divine love.  And what sacrifice is higher than giving and forgiving without receiving or having any need to receive?  From this point of view the devout receives in his or her worship and the worshipped gives in the act of being worshipped.

This outlook will resolve the problem of transcendental and immanent God and how God as the complete Other enters into the world of attributes.  Not only does God not need the devotion and worship of humans despite taking on attributes, but the transcendental Other and God’s pure love is the foundation of the human soul and the cosmos.  In another word, the transcendence of God is not only to the world but is already at work in the world, grounding it and is closer to human beings that their jugular vein.

Even the 99 names of God are grounded in the 100th one, which is the transcendental love of God.  Is it not the case that the names “al-ghafar=the oft forgiving”, and “al-ghafur”=(intensified) the most forgiving”, “al-tawwab=the magnanimous”, “al-afuw=the pardoner”, “al-wadud=the affectionate”, and “al-latif=subtle kindness”, “al-guddus=the holiest”, and “al-jami’=the gatherer”, “al-rahman= the beneficent”, “al-rahim=the merciful”, … even “al-gabar=the enforcer” and “al-qahhar= the subduer” are rooted in this needless, pure, and purifying transcendental love of God?  There is no wall between the God without attributes (transcendental) and the God with attributes (immanent).

We need the sun’s light and air and food from the biosphere but the sun doesn’t need us.  Bringing this transcendence (seeming from afar) into the pulse and center of human soul and the world (the nearest) is like Copernicus’ Revolution, which placed the sun as the center of solar system instead of the earth.  In this way, Copernicus explained so many complex issues in a simple way and later it came out that his postulate was true.  Kant wanted to do the same with human cognition and ethics.  But he got the issues completely reversed: instead of setting Being at the center of cognition and the transcendental love of God as the center of ethical action, he posited categories of understanding as the ground of the cognition of the world and reverence for the a priori law of reason for the foundation of ethical behavior. And so, no wonder that, as it is carved on his grave stone, he stayed in wonder of the ethical law within human chest.


The Sacrifice: Lord's Prayer / Dream Sequence 2

We can’t just reason about this love but should write poetry and dance to understand it.  So, in a poetic attempt I would say:

How can I worship you unconditionally?
How difficult it is,
And even seems impossible,
But from whom did I learn unconditional love?
--Except from You?
Where is the beloved who is sheer giving?
And doesn’t receive anything?
That my veneration is the overflowing of my yearning,
And the tears of my gratitude,
Is for an exit from this crooked and blind dead-end:
Exit from everyday bargaining,
Exit from human conditional attributes,
For you have guided me to a love,
That is beyond space and time.
Although I am powerless,
You have shown me the path,
Through thousand years
Of the narrations of sacrifice to You,
Until I opened up to Your secret,
In sacrificing my ego,
And what did I gain?
The experience of a soul
That You blew in me
From the time immemorial
And asked me to take the arduous route:
From concentric circles
From myself and my family
I ought to exit
To the needy and wayfarer
To give in the hope of return,
I pass into giving up everything
Even my life.
And I shivered in Your secret,
That sacrifice is the steep path towards You,
--who is the essence of Sacrifice,
And You blew from your Soul in me,
Thus, in concentric circles,
I arrived at You from me,
And arrived at me from You.
My wild imagination is keeping on and on
And it knows that it can exit
Like a butterfly who arrives at the sun’s station,
That this beloved transcends all dualities…


Saturday, December 9, 2017


«معنای زندگی
تجربه حضور توست»

«حمد تو را می گویم»
اما افکارم جای دیگری است. 
در فکر خاطره تلخ
یا یاد دوست دیروز
در فکر فرجام فرزند رنجدیده
و مشغله آشوب انتظار.
حمد تو را می گویم
اما دریچه ای به حیطه تو باز نمی شود
اما خلوص قلب را به تو باز نمی کنم.


از من تو می خواهی
که قدم بسیطی بر دارم
--که تو سخاوتمندی--
فقط به سادگی
به یاد تو باشم
وقتی نام تو را می آورم.


--و آنگاه حضور تو را در خویش و در مقابلم احساس می کنم
و تو آبشار نور را در قلب و سر من باز خواهی کرد
و تو مرا در تحولی به تمامی
وارد دنیایی دیگر خواهی کرد.


اما این شرط ساده تو چه سخت است
وقتی که یادی از تو ندارم.
کی بود که آخرین بار تو را دیدم؟
خاطره ام چیست از حس تو؟
با باور تو چه تارهایی در ساز وجود من نواخته می شود؟
به من می گویی که به «یاد» «تو» باشمتا در جذبه دنیای تو غرق شوم
تا تشعشع پاکی روحم را صیقل دهد
تا از خشم و یأس و اندوه رهایی یابم.


چگونه خالصانه تورا عاشقانه ستایش کنم
اگر مضطربم و می پرسم خدایا آیا این سهم من بود؟
چگونه اگر در رنجم
-همسرم، فرزندم، مردم، خودم از درد جسم و جان به خود می پیچند-
تو را مسبب ندانم؟
چگونه حمد تو گویم وقتی گله دارم؟
چگونه در حیطه پاکی تو وارد شوم وقتی در زیر لایه های اعتقادم شکی است؟
که یاد تو نازک شده است
که بخت من و او تاریک شد ه است
که به نام تو کشتار شده است
چگونه گشتالت روح من، شکلِ کلیِ وجود من تغییر کند
وقتی یکپارچه و متمرکز در ستایش تو نمی توانم ایستاد؟

و تو می گویی:

این راز اوست
و وقتی به این راز باز شوی
اضطرابت محو می شود

یخهای های انفصال خوبی و خدا و پاکی
ذوب میشوند

و آنان که به نام او کشتار و ستم می کنند
رسوا می شوند

و نگاهت به بختت روشن می شود
و رنج را در آغوش می گیری و شیرین می شود.

بفهم، به یمن خرد و تجربه و قلب خویش
که هیچ راه دیگری جز او نیست.

و آیا این دلیل خلق جهان نیست؟
تا تو آگاهانه به معرفت بودن او عاشق شوی؟

که هر راه ممکن را بروی 
و به بن بست دیدار او نائل شوی؟
که تو را آزاد خلق کرد، 
تا در ورطه وسوسه و شک غرق شوی؟
و به حفره درون وجود خویش آگه شوی؟
که هیچ چیز راضیت نخواهد کرد جز او؟
که به علم و شهود و تجربه به یقین بدانی که او آغاز و پایان است؟
که چنان در تأمل وجود او غرقه شوی
که حتی اگر تار و پودت را از هم بگسلم
شکی در عدالت او نداشته باشی؟

تو را در راه دشخوار تجربه گذاشت
که فراموشش کنی.
که در پی خدایان نام و ننگ و پول و جاه و لذت روی
که انسان و عدالتش را به جای او بپرستی
که به خویش آگاه شوی.
و آیات او را در بودن خویش
-افق نگاهی خم شده بر اعمال خویش-
در یابی
و معجزه عجز و اعجاب را تجربه کنی
و نام او را بخوانی
در درد و یأس.
و انزجار از اشباع جاه و مال
و دیدگاههای متعدد متفنن را
حس کنی
تا به چشم خویش ببینی
و به گوش خویش بشنوی
ندای او را.

و معجزه بودن را لمس کنی
آنگاه که به تمامی روی به او آوردی
و سد گلایه را شکستی
و خویشتن و هنجار زمانه ای را که به سکوت نشستی
عامل رنج خویش دیدی
و به حکمت او ایمان آوردی.

آنگاه که اجزای بدنت اهسته آهسته کند و نابود می شوند
وقتی بیمار و پیر و رنجور می شوی
وقتی در عذاب کاهش می یابی
وقتی دوست و همسر و فرزندانت را از دست می دهی،
این چنین بر نفْسِ آرزومند خویش دریغ خوری
از خود محوری خویش عاصی شوی
و در بطن پوسیدگی و زوال زندگی
به روشنی و در نفْسی مطمئن
روال جاری ابدیت او را ببینی
و شکی در عدل او نداشته باشی
و با نام او آرامش یابی
و به حمد او بایستی.

با دانش و شهود و تجربه
و بی هیچ ایهام و شک
به راز بودن او وصل شوی
و با فروتنی و تسلیم
یاد او را مقدم بر یاد خویش بدانی:
که تو را
فاعلی مستقل خلق کرد
که به هیچ چیز تقلیل پذیر نیستی:
نه اینهمانی به اعضاء بدنت
نه به مولکول ها و اتم ها و ذرات وجودت
نه به نظم و نظام اجتماعیت
و نه به او، که عبد اویی
و نیاز و فنای بالذات
ذوب کثرت نیست
که در تو جذبه عشق را خلق کرد
مفهوم مستقل نیاز به رابطه
که نیازمند آب و هوا و دانه ای
که در ذات خویش
محتاج عشق و بودن با مردمی
و نیازمند عشق اویی.


که تو را به هزار راه کشاند
که بدانی او معلم و ربّ تواست
و تو را دوست دارد
اما به تو نیازی ندارد.
که تو این را در اجزاء وجودت جذب کنی
و به این مقصد مقدر برسی
که تو به عشق او نیاز داری
برای این که از عشق روح خویش
در تو حیات دمید.


و در عمق دل
مانند ایوب  
از او گلایه ای نداشته باشی
و رحمت او را در نَفَس خویش تجربه کنی
و باران آرامشش بر سریر درد تو فروریزد
و مفهوم بودن خویش را در عبادت او در یابی
و با تمرکز بر یاد او
وارد حیطه باران های طلایی جذبه وصل شوی
که وجد وصل
لذت تن نیست
در این سرمستی
زیاده خواهی و شهوت نیست
در این شور
حرص و طمع نیست
در این حس رهایی و نشاط
بغض و غیض و هوس نیست
در این خلسه خوشی
جایی برای خشم و نفرت، حتی از دشمن نیست.

که این نیایش
باران رحمت سعادتی ابدی است
که این تجربه ازلی
نمودار پاکی و خوبی و خداست
وقتی به حمد تو می ایستم
و در نام تو، تو را به یقین تجربه می کنم.

و در بسم الله الرحمان الرحیم
به رَحِم رحمت تو متصل می شوم

و در الحمدالله رب العالمین
نه هدیتی می دهم که هدیتی دریافت می کنم
که تو عامل پایداری جهان و آنِ منی

و در الرحمان الرحیم
دوبار به عدل رحمت تو اذعان می کنم
و روحی را که در من دمیدی حس می کنم

و در مالک یوم الدین
اصل وجود فرا سو رونده تو را درک می کنم

و در ایاک نعبد و ایاک نستعین
خود نیایش را دریافت نعمت می یابم
و اصل وجود درون ماندگار تو را تجربه می کنم

و در اهدنا صراط المستقیم
تاریخ مست تلو تلو خورانه بشر را می بینم

و در صراط الذین انعمت علیهم غیر المغضوب علیهم و لا الضالین
حدیث زندگی خویش را به یاد می آورمو قانون جاذبه خیر و شر

و در باران طلایی جذبه نام تو
شور روح خویش را می شویم
و از خشم و غیظ و حسد و انتقام و یأس و کبر و خود بزرگ بینی و سلطه جویی و سرکوب گری
باز می شوم

به شفقت،
همدلی،
همدردی،
محبت،
عشق،
صلح،
صبر،
صبر،
صبر


و این چنین یخهای انفصال خوبی و خدا و پاکی ذوب می شوند.